i have prostatitis

and it sucks.

why have i started this blog? because i've been suffering for five months, been tossed around from second-rate doctor to a second-rate urologist. because i'm tired of suffering and want to get better, want to feel normal again. i used to be an outgoing, funny guy with a pretty active lifestyle and social life. it seems like over the last couple months, all of that slowly started slipping away. i feel so much more lonely, don't go out and spend time with my friends as much, aren't as active and hardly exercise and play sports any more. this is just as much a battle with depression that comes along too.

i'm only twenty one, and i can't bear the thought of having to live like this for the rest of my life. i'm already starting to forget what it was like to feel normal, and that scares me.

i need to get better.

this blog will serve as a journal to capture my experience thus far, and also, detail my current progress in this prostatic struggle. i must get better before summer next year, because otherwise, i'm not sure how else i plan to deal with this for the rest of my life.

look forward to talking to you soon.
-a